My son is in college and my daughter is now a senior in high school and I am officially beginning the year of letting go.  Let's be clear, I have consciously understood from the day my children were born that the process of letting go began.   I was warned how fast children grow up, I just didn't believe it would happen so quickly.   And somehow as I was nurturing and loving these amazing beings, I forgot to plan the "what's next" for me.

Why do I feel so lost?  I would adamantly deny, and did so on many occasions, that I was someone who defined myself by my children.  I have spent a lifetime preparing to have children, and the last 18+ years raising them.  Almost every decision I have made has included what is best for and/or how will it affect the children.  How will I define myself now?  What is my purpose?

Being all about me is a fearful place and I have to say it feels somewhat selfish.  Why do I have so many negative thoughts swirling through my head?  This should be a time of growth, opportunity and freedom, not the time for fear and uncertainty.  I am Seeking the joy and opportunity I know is waiting for me, I just can't see it yet.