The laundry still needs to be done...

As I begin this journey of self discovery and as I begin to dwell in the possibilities....apparently the laundry still needs to be done. I offered my son a roll of quarters and he looked at me like I just grew another head. "And why would I need those?" he so innocently asked. "To do your laundry" I stated with all the sincerity I could muster. He really does have an amazing smile and it really works for him.

Is it my responsibility to recreate everyone around me first? This could take awhile :) What I failed to realize is that I have to take my time back and I am thinking this could result in a very interesting game of Tug-of-War. I am determined to win this one!

As much as I want to recreate and rediscover who I am, everyone around me wants me to stay the same. They will be supportive of the new me as long as I continue to be available to meet their specific needs as they arise. I am quickly learning this will be my biggest challenge.

Time passes quickly, slowly.

Really Clean Closets

I spent the weekend cleaning my closet. I was amazed by the number of things I have purchased and completely forgotten about, is this a metaphor? Maybe in addition to always looking forward and searching for something I have not found yet, I should start revisiting the what I left behind. The stuff that brought me joy in the past, the skills I have put on hold or forgotten about because I had so many other "important things" requiring my immediate attention.

I intend to embrace this journey and remain open to and accepting the gifts life is sure to bring my way.

What's Next?

I never expected this to happen. My son is off to college and my daughter is a junior in high school. They are growing up discovering who they are and oops...What's Next? I have never been someone who has defined who they are through their children, or so I thought. I can no longer pretend I am not getting older, somehow when you say you have a child in college you are no longer "young".

Apprehensive and excited about rediscovering and recreating the new and improved me.